A sad day, A peaceful day, A good day,...a chance to write

Its somewhat cold out
Luna continues to bark at the frightened squirrels
I should be working hard on my final projects
The dryer is tumbling ever so loudly
Hammers and drills work their magic on the homes that surround

And somehow, it feels really quiet
Maybe that's because life has been so loud and chaotic
I guess today is my day of peace

I've got to be more calm
I am hurting my body when I carry so much stress
I think I made myself sick Saturday
I really think my body caused fatigue and illness to get me to stop
Don't think that is good,...at least that's what Ben thinks

I love school and I love work, but I don't love them together
I miss the days when I could wake up with a cup of coffee
I miss the days when no one was in my house but me
I miss the days when I had the time and money to buy relaxation
I miss the days when I wanted to read a book or paint a picture

I know I am growing up, and that's just fine
But the way I am growing isn't very healthy, and I would really like to live a long life
I wish they gave you a manual at eighteen that told you how to stay healthy
I wish our bodies and medicine weren't so complicated

Today is one of those days that gives so many memories
Just out of the blue,....I think of Newfoundland and how wonderful that trip was
And just awhile ago, I thought of Alice and how wonderful she is
I am dreaming up new memories as well, like Christmas with my whole family
Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to fill my grandma's place,...in fact I know I do
Candy dishes, decorating every inch of our house (inside and out),
always something warm and good to eat
I miss her, I miss having Christmas with her
I wish she could come out this year
I wish she could see our house
I wish we could be a whole family one last time

Today is a good day
But a strange day
Its a day where I feel somewhat sad
And a day where I feel very peaceful
It must be a good day,....
I finally got to sit down and write.