I've had time....

So I've had time to think
actually, a lot of time to think.
And I've realized that I don't have
a damn
clue about life.

My answers and replies
are rarely ever right.
My thoughts are more confusing
than life changing.
My steps are small and not as
big as I have claimed them to be.

But finally, I am actually growing and moving forward.

My growth is not obvious
My revolution has no sign of beginning
I own a house and a dog
I married the one I love
My adventures in Budapest and India are still
in the planning department.

But finally, I am actually growing and moving forward.

I don't have to defend everything under the sun
I don't have to be backwards just to be different
I don't have to sell my relationship with the Lord
to be known as "open-minded"
I don't have to be a Democrat or Republican
just to freaking fit in!

But finally, I am actually growing and moving forward.

So my hair and clothes are in an awkward stage
So I plant flowers in my garden
So I buy junk and "try" to make them look cool
So I'm a little less popular than I used to be...

But finally, I am actually growing and moving forward.

I am not afraid
of the next hour
day
or Year.
I am not afraid of growing old.
I am not afraid of failing
or becoming past due on my deadlines.
I am not afraid to breathe and take one step
at a time.
Because finally, I am actually growing and moving forward.