YOU DON'T

They like the way it sounds
They like the way it warms their heart
But rarely do they know...

Pungent spinning
Unescapable grip
Psychotic euphoria
Never-ending addiction of birth and death
Yanking of your soul by something very unknown
And yet so familar.

People who say they know,....don't know

Waking Up and Thinking Forward

Days of glory
Days of failure

Days of pleasure
Days of pain

Days of mercy
Days of unforgiving moments

I have days of undesirable angst
and I have days of euphoric spin cycles
Everyday is an interesting day
Not sure how to take each one...

As I have said before, some days we are friends
and others we are not.
Some say its a mood thing,
I wonder if its just a stupid thing.

I don't want predictable.
But it kind of gets old when you don't know
what tomorrow holds.
Mornings can beautiful or disgusting.
Afternoons can carry a sweet breeze
or envelope you into a tornado of chaos.
Evenings can be shared with the one you love
And you'll either end the night with sex
Or ya' just won't.

Yeah, yeah, yeah....
I've heard it all before
This is life.

But wouldn't it be nice if in the midst
of craziness and unpredictability,
you had consistency?

I would love to look beautiful everyday
Never worry about if my complexion will be
fair with me today.
Or better yet,...never look in the mirror to see if
the outfit you've worn so many times still fits.

I hate thinking about the little things.
Worrying about the little things.
Taking my focus off the important things
And again, placing them on the little things.

I would like to wake up everyday
and think forward.

I want to do the important
I want to understand carefree
I want to love beautifully
I want to live wonderfully

Today has been good.....
I just hope the days to follow will remember.

Finally, THE ANSWERS!

Mary talks about her tasks, the romantic ideas of music and the "otherworldly"
Tav contemplates if tomorrow will be his friend and if circumstance will ever set him free

Becca is walking in a bliss of high-risers and change
Justin smiles at everything and dreams of anything freestyle

Audra soaks in ideas, dances in laughter and always has room for tea
Ben doesn't have a care in the world and lives more freely than any other man

Stacy is the best friend who can always keep up and stay up
Heath is the humor and embraces the heart of creativity

Adina (and Jen) walk in beauty and revel in what is next
Vinny takes the time that no one has and gives all that he can

Viv animates every thought and has an intensity like no other
Leon finds facts under every rock and seems to own the shoes of confidence

Lea holds the world in one hand and a smoke in the other
Andrew is calm, collect and lives in rhythmic spirituality.

yackety yack, et cetera et cetera, and blah blah blah

Dilly-Dal
and Dilly Do's.

Oopsie-Daisy
and whoopsie Dazy.

Flippity Flop
And Hoppity Hop.

Humoney Hum Hum
Et Cetera Et Cetera...

Yaddah Yaddah ...
Blah, Blah, Blah!

Frickety Frickin'
Frick Frick! Frick!

SO WHO'S WHO?

So after talking to Ben about who he thinks each person is in "Lovely people and everything else people", I am curious to see what other people think. Reason being,....he thought he knew who everyone was until I told him "I didn't pair the couples up". Thats when he drew a blank:)

SO WHO'S WHO?

Sojourners

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So supposedly,...

So I was watching our lovely Nashville news today and according to there forecast,
today will be full of "SCAT SHOWERS".

Never a dull moment here in the good ole south.

New days...

For those of you who don't know yet,...I actually have a job. A real job.
And its full time. I know thats hard to believe, but whats even more of an accomplishment is I get up every morning before 9am.
Yep! Yep! Were still talkin' about steph.

I'm happy and I look forward to my everday. I feel like I am at school,
but getting paid for the crazy projects I do. Never have I had a job where I learned so much and actually cared about what I am doing. Work equaled paycheck which equaled food and shelter. I really started thinking that work will always be hell and that I will never find peace in it. I thought my choices were to either endure anguish or be homeless.

God is good. God is gracious. God always provides. He gave me a job that doesn't contradict my creativity. He gave me what I asked for.

Lovely people and everything else people

Lovely people,...
And quite fascinating people.
She talks about her tasks, the romantic ideas of music and the "otherworldly".
He contemplates if tomorrow will be his friend and if circumstance will ever set him free.

Lovely people,...
And Beautiful people.
She is walking in a bliss of high-risers and change
He smiles at everything and dreams of anything freestyle.

Lovely people,...
And exquisite people.
She soaks in ideas, dances in laughter and always has room for tea
He doesn't have a care in the world and lives more freely than any other man.

Lovely people,...
And splendid people.
She is the best friend who can alwasy keep up and stay up.
He is the humor and embraces the heart of creativity.

Lovely people,...
And stunning people.
She walks in beauty and revels in what is next
He takes the time that no one has and gives all that he can.

Lovely people,...
And delightful people.
She animates every thought and has an intensity like no other
He finds facts under every rock and seems to own the shoes of confidence.

Lovely people,...
And crazy people.
She holds the world in one hand and a smoke in the other
He is calm, collect and lives in rhythmic spirituality.

These are lovely people...
My very own people
And of course,...
Everything else people.

I Think We Could Be Friends

I love when it rains.
It makes me feel like I haven't really missed out
on my mornings.
Usually the sun is bursting through the windows
and coffee almost seems wrong.

Summer showers are the perfection of
restful thinking.
Too many days of rain only bring sadness.
But spouts of the unexpected, bring peace to my soul.

Oh today feels good.
Coffee, words finally written, and the one I love
sitting across from me.

I think Me and Today could be friends.

COFFEE! COFFEE! COFFEE!

Coffee is good
Coffee is my friend
I love coffee!

Fairies and the tips that seem to never make sense

Do you ever wish to live in the back of your
mind?
Not just to visit
or to pick something up
that's been on layaway.

But to relish.
Relish and get all pruney
in the
Mystery and unpredictable...
No limits or rules
No real reason
Just the simplicity and complexity
of childlike.

I think the back of mind is full
of fairies and crazy wanderers.
Its the only thing that makes sense.
I mean, how else and what else could make
me
be me?

Yeah,...its definitely full of nymphs,
fairies and zellars.
The wanderers walk backwards
and always hand out tips for the day
that never seem to
make sense.

It's peaceful in what isn't sense.

I think the back of my mind is next
door
to Dr. Suess
and
the kids who live where the sidewalk ends.

Up and down
and always all around.

Back and Forth
To and Fro
Always on the high
and never really minding
the Low.

Twirl, spin and laugh
Never stop
yet sleep all day.

Mad
or
Sane
Everything goes.

This is life I most definitely
chose.

But why? Oh why?
did God not make it my front?